Originally Posted by elhi13
Sailor Girl..I know that I am your twin...same issues...same feelings..same feeling of desperation. We are human, and it is not much to want to feel that validation. I, too, am at my wits end...even took a trip to the other coast to get away and try to sort out my feelings. I too, have not, been able to have that affair that I need..to feel the passion, the touch..but the other man is attentive but doesn't want to have sex without some sort of feelings...he would not use me or hurt me..(in my mind...I am like WTF...but because he is a dear person..I surrender...lol rejection on both coasts.) I would rather have him there with me than nothing at all. I will take the friendship and confidence that we are building..though the sexual chemistry is there, it is more that I get at home. Well my twin..I hope it makes you feel better that you are not alone...till we chat again !!!!
Well the guy I want to have an affair with doesn't really have any feelings towards me that I know of. He is more of an acquaintance than a friend. It is a little embarrassing, but he is our mechanic. Not that I am embarrassed at him being a mechanic--I think mechanics are great, and usually intelligent men. I know there is no way I could ever figure our how to fix a car. I mean embarrassed at having feelings for someone who barely knows I exist. Or knows I exist only when it comes to a business sense, I'm the lady with the old car that needs lots of work--the valued customer, LOL. Not the "Whoa, I want a piece of that" woman. Which right now is what I would rather be. But I have been taking my car and my husband car there for 6 or 7 years now and he has never once made any move to suggest anything sexual. So I really doubt he is into me.