I know that kind of story. I'm still hurt until now and always trying to just go on with life.
I been married to my husband for 4 years. But we separated for 2 years. He was the one who initiated the reconciliation and I trusted him hoping that the previous problems -- the reasons why we separated last time -- will never be an issue. But it never happened. Everytime we quarreled, I tried to be calm and just take everything he said bad about me. He had a very, very bad temper and he forgets I'm a person when he's angry.
He had several relationships when we were 'off'. And when he asked for a reconciliation, I thought he's really serious giving up all his 'girls'. But when I came to his place, he has 'unfinished businesses' and it hurts me a lot. I can see the pain in the 'other' girl's part also. Though he's with me, he always open the blog of the 'other' girl, sing their song and unconsiously asks the wind: how is she?
He always tell me that I am the only one that he ever loved and that was the reason why he still wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. But he kept on his showing actions which makes me really suspicious, and make me think if he's really done with the girl.
If only we were not married, I can give way but I keep on fighting because I wanted to have peace of mind.
Besides, sacrifising my own future for him, I've tried to accept his being "charming" to women. Yet, he never see that I am a good person and that I am working very hard on our marriage.
Being a wife is like forgetting about yourself, following the growth of your children and pleasing your husband -- unconditionally. We cannot talk to them if they womanize. But they'll kill us if we cheat.
Last edited by Unis; 06-18-2007 at 11:13 AM.
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