I dont know draconis because I cant really recall a time when things were really good!
I just feel empty, when we kiss goodbye its empty. When he occasionally says he loves me (usually if he thinks theres something on my mind) it doesnt evoke anythink. When I say I love you back, I feel guilty. I sometimes find it really hard to be around him (but I do with other people too so is not a good indicator)
I just dont know because I dont really feel anything? Does that make sense.
And im not sure about the sticking with me through rough times , more like stuck together as hes not particularily supported me. But given our relationship, he must I spose to still be here with me. (although once when I said we should split up, he did comment on how these things didnt happen to him because he wasnt like everyone else, he was good? So wether or not he sees it as a failure thing too....I dont know?)