| | Should I file for divorce or try to make it work?
I am 25 yrs old and have been married for 2 yrs. My husband and I bought a house together 1 yr before we got married. From that point on our relationship started going downhill. It was then that I found out he had an addiction to porn and online dating sites. This really bothered me but he did not care at all. He wanted to leave me over it but I talked him out of it and eventually I just accepted it. Today though as far as I know, he doesn't look anymore but I don't care enough now to look at the internet history. Anyways, I feel very insecure in this marriage. Every time we have an argument/disagreement he always threatens divorce. I'm sick of it and can't live my whole life afraid of him leaving me. He works night shift and I work day shift. We only see eachother on Saturdays and Sundays. We both have a hard time communicating with eachother. I feel like we are going our seperate ways and I am no longer in love with him. I feel like I'm single and as much as I regret it, I have cheated on him in the past but he does not know this. He has never really shown that he cares about me until I recently mentioned to him that I'm thinking about leaving. I am shocked to see he doesn't want me to leave. It seems like all he cares about in women is looks. He doesn't want me to leave because he said he won't be able to find another princess like me. He said he'd walk through fire and crawl on hot coals and broken glass just to keep me. We don't have any kids but I would like one someday. He wants one too but doesn't want me to gain weight and get stretch marks. I'm just afraid that when I get older he will be unhappy with me because I'm not always going to look like I do now.
Two months ago I went to a lawyer for a consult and I am seriously thinking about filing for divorce. My husband does not know I've seen a lawyer. Should I tell him? I don't know if I'm willing to work this marriage out or not. I have a feeling that if I don't divorce him now then it will happen sometime in the future. I just have a really bad feeling. I am so confused and not sure what to do. Your advice will be very much appreciated!