Re: OPEN confession of a confused man. (please dont judge)
I know one way to fix this if you actually still love your wife....
Just be in a dark corner at a bar where you're looking up women to prey on. Then watch your wife come in and start flirting with another man and see him take her out the door. If you care about her at all, it will likely cure you of your bs. Sad thing is, your wife probably isn't that devoid of character and it will never happen.
What you're doing would hurt your wife to the point of her not wanting to live for a long time, if she found out. You'll never know pain until you experience someone doing to you what you're doing to your wife.
Please find a way to stop, or cut her loose.