| | Also so alone and completely lost
The divorce hasnt happened yet but its comming. I hurt my back a few years back and have only been getting worse. I just started getting social security which, lets face it, cant get you anything in this world. The back problem is what cause her to feel like we were falling apart, because it has become so hard for me to get out of the house even just to see a movie or get something to eat. I have still made dinner every night and took care of her every need that I was physically able to do, but I guess that wasnt enough. We never even had a fight since we got married and she never hinted at any problem. Even when I would ask her if there was a problem. She would just say she didnt feel well or had work on her mind. But I cant work, I dont make enough money to do anything with my life except eat and live with my parents. At least I have that. But now what. I cant start going out or take a vacation or even hang out with friends because I cant physically do it. All I had in life was looking forward to give my wife dinner when she came home and hold her and tell her how much I loved her and how great she was and holding her until she fell asleep. Now I can only see myself growing old in a spare bedroom at my parents house. What can I possibly look forward to. The pain might go away someday, somehow. But then what. Who wants a man that has trouble just getting around.