I love my husband so much. He's so sweet and respectful and we treasure our marriage so much. We have a simple dream of having our own little house and having kids. He's going to make a fantastic dad someday!
The problem is my husband is illiterate. He can't read or write above maybe a first grade level, and that's if he concentrates. He has ADHD and dyslexia. We can't afford to see someone to get him meds and into reading classes. He can't even spell his own middle name. As you can imagine, he is extremely insecure about it.
When we met he had a good job in a warehouse but he quit/got fired because of safety violations. He was young and careless. He regrets it so bad now because he can't find a job anymore! He was so incredibly lucky to have found that job because it was mostly operating the machinery, it paid 17/hr, lots of overtime and benefits, and he was very good at it. That was 4 years ago. It was hard enough to land that job, now the sour economy has made it impossible. I supported us (just barely) for two years but eventually I was laid off and we were forced to move in with parents. I'm having trouble finding a job now as well.
It's so depressing that we are basically wasting our days just sleeping, eating, moping around the house and looking for jobs and filling out applications. I feel like we're just waiting to die and we'll never have even a cruddy little shack to call our own and we'll never et to start a family.
I am hoping to land a seasonal job now that stores are getting ready for the holidays, but I've already decided to start a 2 year computer programming program at the local college. I can't put it off any longer, I have to get it done so I can support us.
I just feel so depressed. And you can only imagine how my husband's male ego must feel. And he wants kids so bad, but I told him "I'm sorry but until you get a job, I refuse to let that happen. It will only make things worse" I just have no idea what to do anymore except keep on keeping on, but it still feels pretty hopeless
I just want us to be able to start living our life.
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