Twistedheart

Well we are still together. It has been about 4 months since I found out. Honestly I can say that we are better friends, spouses and even parents. I refuse to except this, but it is like the affair hurt us but then helped us. As hard as that is to even think it seems true.

It has taught us both how to talk to each other. To share everything we feel no matter what. To appreciate the other more. And to not dismiss the other's feelings. That is a dangerous thing to do. Communication always was our problem. We have both learned a lot about life and about ourselves over these last 4 months.

We absolutely know this: We love each other so very strongly and we want to be married to each other. A lot of things went into saving my marriage but none were more important than the love.

I have my days when thinking about the hurt and pain she caused me. She realizes what she did to me/us and it does make it easier to deal with knowing that she knows and tries to understand. She knows when I am feeling down and I tell her everything I am feeling.

Sometimes I feel like none of this is worth it when I think about how I felt when I found out. I think about how I should have gotten out when I had the opportunity. But those are just the bad days, which are getting farther and farther apart. When it's good it's good. Which is most of the time. But when it's bad I tell her. She openly listens to me and reinforces the good times we have and how we are growing together for the better, which I agree.

Only time makes things better. Mistakes happen and forgiveness is very possible, though I never thought so. I believe we will survive this, as we are doing so right now. As long we both believe in each other and never stop working to make this thing work, we're going to be ok.

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