Originally Posted by greenpearl
You are a man who values dignity a lot. Am I right? Don't want people to feel sorry for you! You don't want people to see you being weak, especially the ones you know! Am I right?
I am the same! I hate it when people pity me.
I feel that you still yearn for romance, why not!
But please find a woman who really cares about you! Don't let her know that you have money. Some women are not that sincere. I do believe there are a lot of forty-year-old single women.
If you do want to leave, please just end everything fast. If you let it procrastinate for one more day, you lose one more day.
Wish you happy!!!
You are absolutely right, I yearn for romance, a bright, funny woman who can be older than me or younger, but probably close in age.
In the last month or two I've met two who I like, one older, one younger, both alas with very, very close friends.
Youth, as the cliche goes, is wasted on the young. In January while I was on vacation a number of very attractive young women sat down near me while I was on a warm beach, despite youth and beauty, I wouldn't want to spend a minute doing anything other than making love to any of them - their loveliness was matched only by absence of brains and compassion - they were self centered to the extreme.
I don't want people to feel sorry for me, I want to open the door for myself, carry my own packages, I didn't want my former coworkers or most of my friends and acquaintances knowing the name of my neurological condition, most people here think it is always rapidly & completely disabling when it isn't for most of us, it was enough they saw me use a cane and later a scooter.
Your advice to not let women know I have money is good, I recall that one of the things my now wife really liked when we met was that I have a good education and a good job despite being temporarily broke. I wanted a date and a shared night or two, she wanted marriage within a few minutes of talking.
Much to my amazement she has been nicer as I've gotten more distant and stronger. Today she said "When do you want to go to Seattle and SF?" I've been asking for an answer and was getting ready to leave in October for 5 or 6 weeks. Now she wants to be with me for 8 to 10 days and stay in my son's tiny house in Seattle. I want to be there because of my grandchildren, in past years she's always wanted a nice, expensive hotel where she can sleep late. Interesting, on one level she finally realizes her meal ticket - me - is on the way out the door and is hoping to keep me around.
I agree with you about the need to move forward rapidly. Tomorrow (Saturday) or Sunday I'll make travel plans for November, though I may end up going out in October, she can come out on her schedule.