Ah. what a beautiful day in therapy today. Not much time to post.
In short, no decisions now...as suspected. Working on me. I have the greatest therapist ever. I am truly blessed. I am temporarily relieved from the burden of a decision. I am making good decisions by not putting myself in extraordinarily difficult situations where I am alone with men, though hard. And, I have some tools to separate my inappropriately learned behavior patterns & relationship patterns from reality. After I learn how to do this I can then make my decisions.
Posters
Thanks for the support, good wishes, and thoughts. I knew I was in a scary place of circular thinking and fear. I'll keep you posted on my decisions/learned behavioral solutions as they come.
No worries everyone! No way would I have a child until I am more stable! No way will I sleep around, I just felt dangerously close and was calling out! I am way too afraid of passing along my misunderstanding of the world, and my addiction. Until I straighten all of that out...no way. That's why I'm in therapy!
As for you less_disgruntled
Again, not sure my excessive typing makes it easy to understand my situation. But I am also in grad school, work 2 jobs, and am enrolled in a certification prep course. Not sure why you would value his PhD as taking more time. We're equally matched here. And be surprised!
-I have never heard that before because I've never done anything to evoke that response. I'm not sure you're catching my point. Perhaps I haven't it explained it well.
