Driftwood

Hello,

I have a different post in the men's clubhouse about my marriage but I saw this section and decided that I needed to post something here to. Over the past few years I have come to believe that I have a few problems and have no where to turn. I believe that I have a Social Anxiety. I was told at a young age that I am bi-polor, manic-depressent. I also have ADHD. The reason I have come to this choice about the Social anxiety is because I hate going anywhere now. I dont like to talk to people face to face. I feel out of place, confused, withdrawn from people when in public. I will speak when spoken to but dont like start a conversation or even know how to start one. For a long time I just thought I was being shy... but hell now aday I dont even like to order my own food at dinner... I just dont like to talk to people. This is something that I want to over come so much but have no idea how... The thought od this problem to me is really strange. I use to be such a social butterfly. This problems bothers me so bad that I believe that it is one of my depression problems. I have felt that may parts of my life are in ruin and that I can not figure a way to fix it. I can not afford to seek councling. So here I am for Ideas. Maybe a new friend for support. Something... I just dont feel that I have anyone to turn to.

Thanks,
Driftwood