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I spent a month living with my wife before she moved out...tried everything to convince her to stay, convinced myself she would...the day she moved out, I went ballestic...it felt really good...haha.

Since then, I have done nothing toward her...don't call her unless it is absolutely neccesary...don't email her...I've lost 20 pounds and have worked to keep it off...not drinking, reading a lot, keeping my support group close and on standby...I'm doing better, getting stronger...I'll be fine no matter what...even had a lady at work give me her number the other day (filed it away, just in case!!!).

My 16 year old son chose to stay with me, my 20 year old son comes home from college and stays with me...I can't be all evil...

I thought things were getting better between us lately, but I haven't talked to her in a week...has me worried!!!

But, I'm getting better everyday and know I'll be a better person regardless of what happens...point being, take this time to be selfish and take care of yourself...be the best parent you can be...