denise1218

Thanks again for the input. Yesterday was a very bad day all around. Not only for me but for my kids as well. My husband actually took the day off and got the kids out of school so that he could see them because he misses them. That was a good thing. But my oldest son yesterday broke down in school and my youngest one says that he will never be happy again. Monday night I talked to my husband and he was crying about how his life sucks...I told him that I know exactly how he feels. He said that my life doesn't suck because I have the boys all the time...he doesn't. I told him he just didn't understand. He has been chatting with a few girls he met on the dating website. But nothing has happened. He said there was this one girl...she wasn't very pretty, but she was very nice. He thought for sure he would have a chance with her. I guess nothing became of it but it made him feel bad because he can't even attract an "unattractive" girl. After he told me that, I just burst out crying. I am not "model" gorgeous, but I am not butt ugly either...but one of the things he said to me was that he was not as attracted to me. I am overweight and I don't like the way I look...but I always try to look the best I can. I just don't understand why he wont' give our marriage just one more try. I never want to go thru something like this again. I now know the importance of communication. He says that he will probably get attached to any girl that pays him attention...no matter what she looks like. Dagger in my heart. If only he would try one more time....we could get thru this...together....I just don't understand. I really am not that bad of a person.