Originally Posted by Confused-Wife
I find myself wishing something would happen, anything. Something that would give me a good reason to leave. I find myself hoping that he'll cheat on me (which he'll never do), or that I would experience something traumatic which would give me an excuse.
How stupid is that?
Are these just attempts to make me feel better about being seemingly selfish? I don't know.
I can totally relate to you guys. I have wanted to leave for a couple of years now, and I am finally to the point where I am going to start the divorce process soon. I kept wishing that he would do something to justify me leaving. I finally realized that even if he doesn't do something horrible, I still want to leave. He is trying to be super nice right now and say that he wants to work things out, and it doesn't change the fact that I don't love him. I have explained to him that the way he has treated me over the years has resulted in me not being in love with him anymore. Even though he apologized for his treatment of me and truly feels bad, that doesn't change the way I feel. I don't want to kiss him, hold his hand, go to counseling or have children with him. I have felt this way for over two years, and that's just the way I feel. If I can't have children with this man, then it's time to move on.