lostcherub

Hi i'm new but need somewhere to vent and talk. I can't believe he did it my husband and my friend has sex txt on msn on the webcam while I was asleep upstairs in our bed. I am so hurt and betrayed I can't believe they done it they both went on until each was fulfilled and for over an hour without even a doubt or niggle to say we shouldn't be doing this my wife/friend is upstairs. I don't think he realises how much he has hurt me and I spend my time feeling so hurt sad angry and completely unbelieving that it happened. I have to carry on everyday because we have three children and I do love him its not something we just turn off but I don't know if I can ever trust him again or forget about it/ He says it was just words but there were actions too and on the cam altough he tries to say the cam wouldn't work?? I don't know what to do I don't even know what I'm really asking here sorry if I'm wasting everyones time, it just hurts so much and I don't really want to talk to my family and hurt them with my hurt so I had to vent.