Hello,
I am new to this site and I just need to vent and let out all my feelings and emotions to someone.
I am 22 years old, married for 2 years in April, and have an almost 3 year old son and a 7 month old son with my husband. This man has put me through hell. He used to be physically and emotionally abusive. He has cheated, once while I was pregnant with our second child. He has lied to me several times. He was incredibly controlling of me. For example, I wasn't allowed to wear certain things to work because he said so.
I left him last month for a week because all his past was eating me alive. We reconciled after he wrote me poems, sent me flowers everyday, and showed me how sorry he was and that he really wanted to change.
Here is the problem. While he has changed and is everything I have ever wanted him to be, I do not think I love him anymore. When we were seperated, I didn't even miss him. I was relieved more than anything. I don't know if its me just trying to get over the past, or if I truly do not love him anymore. I do not want to hurt him, but I do not want to make a mistake by leaving him either, if I am wrong about my feelings.
Someone, please give me some advice on what to do!
I am new to this site and I just need to vent and let out all my feelings and emotions to someone.
I am 22 years old, married for 2 years in April, and have an almost 3 year old son and a 7 month old son with my husband. This man has put me through hell. He used to be physically and emotionally abusive. He has cheated, once while I was pregnant with our second child. He has lied to me several times. He was incredibly controlling of me. For example, I wasn't allowed to wear certain things to work because he said so.
I left him last month for a week because all his past was eating me alive. We reconciled after he wrote me poems, sent me flowers everyday, and showed me how sorry he was and that he really wanted to change.
Here is the problem. While he has changed and is everything I have ever wanted him to be, I do not think I love him anymore. When we were seperated, I didn't even miss him. I was relieved more than anything. I don't know if its me just trying to get over the past, or if I truly do not love him anymore. I do not want to hurt him, but I do not want to make a mistake by leaving him either, if I am wrong about my feelings.
Someone, please give me some advice on what to do!