| | Re: lonely and lost
Sorry you are going through this. I know how hard all of this can be when a long-term marriage comes to an end.
Unless he is willing to change his behavior and participate in marriage counseling, I think you are better off without him. Are you currently seeing a counselor? If not, you may want to do so...especially since you were the victim of physical and verbal abuse.
You really need to see an attorney for advice. Now is the time to begin protecting yourself financially. Most attorneys won't charge you for the initial consultation.
Hang in there!