lostcherub

Is it normal to start comparing yourself to the other person? I was at my sisters birthday ann summers party on saturday night and found myself being talked into dressing up as the french maid, fine at the time I thought.

However the last photo I have of my friend who was invloved with the sex talk with my hubby is of her dressed as the french maid at my own ann summers party a while back.
What I have found myself doing now is comparing the photo of me in the outfit to her in the outfit trying to see who looks better, who carries it off well, is it me or her, me or her???

I have sane moments when I know this is destructive for my already low self esteem (as a result of the emotional affair was not low before the EA) but at the same time I can't help myself. I look at them differently each time trying to find something I have missed or to find reason to explain why he wanted to do what he done with her.