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Old 11-15-2007, 01:33 AM   #11 (permalink)
evenow
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Default Re: Sometimes it feels like a terrible mistake

I want to apologize for my last post, it was a little petulant. I guess I get frustrated because I've seen the horizon in my relationship. Imagine you've married your best friend--of the same sex and you're heterosexual. No spark has ever been in-between you.

Of course you're going to have fun and communicate well. You're both buddies. There will also never be more invested in this relationship than loving them like a brother/sister/friend. You rarely have passionate arguments because you don't care about them as a lover. You rarely initiate anything because it doesn't occur to you to see them as anything but a teddy bear.

I am unhappy a lot. But sometimes I don't know if it is because of what I'm doing/not doing or if it's just the unhappiness I carry around in me. I am loving to him. But it just feels like there should be more.
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