Thanks everyone for reading and posting. To hear some of you in how much you have lost on your own, is awesome! I need to lose 25-30 to be 'ideal' weight. I know I can 20. Have before. But, before, I didn't feel I was in a place I didn't belong or want to be.
So, with that said....I guess next few days I need to research, plan, figure out what I can do to start slow and work way in to a regimin. I just said to mom today, when I get home, I let the environment just drag me down. Almost like I feel I HAVE to be a downer out of pure habit. It's very sad and NOTHING like me. The real me!
Feel like I shoudl google "Is your marriage making you fat"!

Always and excuse. Feeling pathetic.
Okay, well...right now, looking to see what I can do to start! Maybe Monday needs to be the new start of a new me!