SBBS, wasn't it kind of fun? I miss having crushes--can't even remember the last one! One of the major attractions (IMO) is that they aren't very realistic, so you can let your imagination go wild--like, imagining he will always be perfect and charming and say exactly the right things, stuff you don't imagine with a "real" prospect b/c you know that's not fair and besides, the real guy is going to surprise you with who he REALLY is (hopefully, in a good way) and you don't want to imagine, you want to discover!
But, thanks for sharing your emotional adventure. A very inexpensive, low-cal, vicarious thrill