AmI..OMG girl...i'm speechless ...i just want to tell you one more time that you are amazing...you're so strong.
I'm sorry about your health , good is coming your way...there is no way God will let you suffer that much...I refuse to believe.
Your H. is so lost that he'll never find happiness, without you he'll be so pathetic that he won't be able to stand himself...you know WHY because he is not able to fully love someone...he is incapable to truly love.
Please take care of yourself and your beautiful kids.I would say to try and completely cut him off from your life but I know that it's easy to say. I'm just so disappointed in human nature at the moment...how can someone behave like that.I don't get it.
We all know he has this condition but still ... my God what a cold hearted bastard.....
hugs hunny...i really wish i was there for you...i'm just so sad that I know about this and can't do a thing to help you... it sucks so much