| | Just need to vent
I've been married 16 months and it's not good at all. It's not the first marriage for either of us and we are falling apart. We average 2 big fights each month and I know they are all my fault - how can they be - he tells me so. The most recent last last night (continuing to today). I was home alone, cleaning and had the tv on a channel that I was listening to/watching as I worked. He comes home, grabs the remote and changes the channel. No biggie, I got to another room and am watching tv. He comes in, asks why I am in there and I told him it was because I was watching something. From there it has escalated to how I stay mad, that he does nothing right, that I need to file for divorce, and that I stopped to visit on my way home for a half hour with a divorced friend that is building a house (never mind that he had stopped to have a few beers with a friend of his). I'm at my wits end. Seriously, he has me believing that I'm horrible, that I do nothing right and that I'm worthless. I just had to vent becuase I have no one to talk to. If I leave, I admit I'm a failure (which I've known for the last 18 years). I know I'm not good at much, but I'm not totally worthless. I try to do well for my family, I try to work hard, take care of this home, and remodel the house he owned prior to our marriage. I don't blow money on myself, I never eat lunch out, but I just can't do enough.
Thanks for listening, I just had to get it off my chest