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I've been married 16 months and it's not good at all. It's not the first marriage for either of us and we are falling apart. We average 2 big fights each month and I know they are all my fault - how can they be - he tells me so. The most recent last last night (continuing to today). I was home alone, cleaning and had the tv on a channel that I was listening to/watching as I worked. He comes home, grabs the remote and changes the channel. No biggie, I got to another room and am watching tv. He comes in, asks why I am in there and I told him it was because I was watching something. From there it has escalated to how I stay mad, that he does nothing right, that I need to file for divorce, and that I stopped to visit on my way home for a half hour with a divorced friend that is building a house (never mind that he had stopped to have a few beers with a friend of his). I'm at my wits end. Seriously, he has me believing that I'm horrible, that I do nothing right and that I'm worthless. I just had to vent becuase I have no one to talk to. If I leave, I admit I'm a failure (which I've known for the last 18 years). I know I'm not good at much, but I'm not totally worthless. I try to do well for my family, I try to work hard, take care of this home, and remodel the house he owned prior to our marriage. I don't blow money on myself, I never eat lunch out, but I just can't do enough.

Thanks for listening, I just had to get it off my chest