Sakaye

I've been thinking if I should post here the last couple of days and then figured, ahhh why not?

Anyway, I'm just wondering if there are anyone out there who feel inadequate in the sheets. Or even if maybe they have a partner like me, who is so self conscious and expresses their feeling of inadequacies. If you have a partner like me, do you reassure him/her?
I guess I feel inadequate because my husband is way into porn.
I always thought I was an awesome partner (in bed) to have. I'm pretty explorative and don't mind doing and trying out new things (except the multiple partner thing - but I'll play along if its a fantasy of being with other people, just won't do it in real life). I actually thought I was a pretty skilled lover too till my H came along.
He's hard to please. Literally. He says everything is fine, but I don't want it to be fine, I want it to be like the best sex he's ever had. I've only had sex with 3 other men in my entire life, and I know for a fact that I was one of the top lovers in their lives, I hate to say how I found out about a couple of 'em, but I believe it. I don't mean to sound like a *****, or anything, because I'm anything but, I just want ya'll to understand where I'm coming from and why my situation now feels sort of devastating. Its just I can't seem to please my husband, no matter what techniques I use. His **** totally outlasts my everything. I thought I was a good bj giver till my H, I thought I was good on top till my H, etc. Its not that he never makes it, but I feel defeated every single time after sex. He almost always ends up having to help himself somehow. Its so depressing. We are 5 years apart (I'm older) and it makes me feel like I can't keep up or something.
Although he never complains and says he's happy w/me, he HAS said he's gotten better bj's.
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