| | SUPER jealous of wife's past
First post here. Hello everyone!
I'm married, been with my wife for 8 years and have 3 kids together. I love my wife, I think she is gorgeous and I'm always thinking about her. I miss her when she isn't around (like at work).
But the thing is I just can't get over her past. Before she met me she had sex with 8 other guys, I'm her 9th. One was a threesome. She was a little wilder than she is now, obviously. I'm just so damn jealous, I don't know what to do. In 8 years I have not been able to forget about it or let it go. It drives me crazy. Every time I get intimate with her I start thinking about it and picturing in my mind her with someone else, then I get upset and jealous and don't want to finish.
Before you jump all over me, I do realize this was her past and it happened before she knew me, and I know I shouldn't even be thinking about it. She has never cheated on me and never would. The thought of cheating just simply is not going to cross her mind, so it's not like I don't trust her or think she's going to cheat or anything like that; I know for a fact she never would. It is simply a case of being extremely jealous because other guys were inside of her, and I don't want anyone else inside there pleasuring her. I want to be able to have her all to myself, not let other guys have the pleasure of being with her, and obviously that can never happen.
She has the most kissable lips ever, and honestly, being inside of her is heaven! I just can't stand the thought of her moaning and being vocal over another man being in her. Her threesome really bothers me too, just knowing she was a little wild back then and is so conservative now makes me wonder how she can change so drastically.
We have discussed this many times at great length. It often causes arguments. I'm a jealous prick and I admit it. I wish I could forget all about it and pretend like she wasn't ever with anyone, but it just won't go away damn it.
Apparently, I'm also not the largest she has had. My fault; I asked, she answered honestly. I'm not small, but also not 9" like she had before. I know she doesn't care about it at all, but that's another jealous topic for me; I know another guy has touched parts of her that I never can.
Our relationship is awesome other than that. I treat her well, I do most of the cooking, all the cleaning and laundry, buy her what she wants or needs.
Stupid jealousy. I hate being a Virgo!