Sprite

To be honest I believe him when he says he has changed for good. I believe him when he says he will never treat me that way again...but how do I get the trust back?

I do not believe anyone is any better than the next person...we are just different, BUT, I have been "better than him" in our marriage because I havent broken promises over and over again. We have never been "equals" in our relationship..he is the man/I am the woman..we both have "jobs" within the relationship, but none of them ever amounted to us being equals. I did what I was supposed to do as a wife and mother and I did them because I wanted a strong stable family. I did it because I truely loved him more than anything at one point and I wanted him to have what he wanted..I think I let him have too much! We are trying to move on within our marriage, but it is hard when I don't have those feelings for him.

You say to have a heart and forgive him..well, I have forgiven him for so many things in the past I feel like my forgiveness has been worn out. When he told me he used to apologize just to basically shut me up...that hurt and makes me believe he might not be truely sorry now. I guess I should take my own advice here and tell myself that only time and patience will tell... but im tired of time, and waiting to see what is going to happen. I cant forgive him so easily this time, my head wont allow me to.