CrystalPalace

Well, came back from my trip and the wife agreed we need to talk. She had already discovered I had read her email. She claimed to be mad. But when I confronted her with all the crap I'd found she admitted she'd had an EA with this guy. She was "looking for attention" and knew it wouldn't get physical. Almost certain I believe her--but it's that doubt that's a B**TCH isn't it? Scary thing is how selfish she can be about this all. Like it's okay to mess with this guy's mind, his marriage, and of course ours.

You guys have hit it right on the head regarding being a doormat who's been disrespected. Ever seen Marlon Brando's monologue in Apocalypse Now? "And then I realized... like I was shot... like I was shot with a diamond... a diamond bullet right through my forehead.." ..That I've been a doormat in so many areas of my life for so long. Always indecisive, procrastinating. Angry and distant at others through my own frustration at my inability to get S**T done like a man. I'm successful in my job, but always dissatisfied. I've been successful in my family life (with two great kids) but always dissatisfied in the marriage too.

Yes, I've already ordered a copy of "No More Mr. Nice Guy."

I have a session set up for Wednesday with a marriage councilor. Will keep you posted.

Thanks again for the support and kick in the shorts.