Lisad1014

Thank you all for your replies. The suspicions have been getting worse over the years. I guess my life is kinda transparent because I go to work, come home, go to PTA meetings, etc. pretty boring. He says the reason for the mistrust is because early into our relationship I held back my feelings in general (my way of keeping up my guard, whether it was right or wrong, I did it) and now I feel as though I am being punished for that. I have told him if he felt that way and didnt trust me then why marry me?? The answer.....I hoped you would open up. I don't know how much more open I can now be...I talk about my day, his day, us, everything. Once he accussed me of not being at the bank when I said I was because my two deposit slips said two different times. We fought for a whole day or so about this. Until he went to the bank and found out that there computer system was screwed up and it wasn't me. And all I got was "sorry". I asked him why he didn't put as much effort into his apology as he did his accusations? I got "but I said I was sorry". I don't know what to do. Sometimes it feels like too much time and aggravation to keep trying but then I remember and still see the great times together. I don't know, but I know I need to be happy somehow whether it's together or separate....??