If you must open a way to seeing him...
Tell him the only way you will see him is in counseling. That he is paying for. The counselor needs to be the one calling you to set the appointment. Otherwise he is not to contact you. The offer expires in one month.
Though I think him divorcing you is about the clearest message you will get.
I'm so sorry.
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