pinky24,
I really think you have beat yourself up enough. It is very good that you admitted your faults and told your husband. I can respect that. If you want to be a good wife you have to work on you as a person first. If you are stressed and thinking of harming yourself you need to get right first. I really and truly believe that you now know the roads that should be avoided so please, avoid them. Work on you. I am the LS and after what my H did I experienced a lot of your emotions. It took me awhile but I
realized I was destroying myself and what worked for me was starting a journal, yoga for the stress and depression and a therapist. I didn't feel different initially but I am dedicated so now I am letting it work for me. You should try one or all and see what works for you. Turn all of the negative energy into making you better = making your marriage better. Best of luck to you.
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