I am trying to write more, but i also get really bad gut feeling that knaw at me. Im trying to change all the mistakes i think i have made in the past and i know i cant. i am worrying i wont have the chance to "make it right" in the future. its like there 2 sides to me, the negative side which sometimes takes over and i cant help but keep thinking the worse, no mater how hard i try
My childhood was not pleasant either, but it does give me an insight into other people sometimes.
Not many Kids have to endure what i did.
I do know i have to "man Up" but she is a part of me and it literally hurts.