| | Re: Why?
Here is the thing I told her that I thought it was completely selfish for her to go out. She is moving out in the next week or so. I cannot physically stop her from doing anything and she has proven that she will do whatever she wants to do regardless of what I say or demand. She is such a complete jerk that if she did stay home she would completely badger me the entire night and try to provoke me. Is that healthy for me or my son? I'm just damned if I do and damned if I don't. If she stays I go through hell with her home, if she goes I at least am away from her and my son and I can have some fun, but at the same time I'm wondering what she is doing and will be depressed. I'm just screwed either way.
At this point my thought process is to let her self destruct. At least I will have peace for the night and be able to spend time with my son and my parents, who my son really enjoys. It's part of the focus on myself and my son part.
With that said, I'm upset by her going out, I've voiced my opinion and feel that it's selfish. I've told her that instead of going out she should be getting things together to move out because I will not help her move or do anything at the place she is staying. It's all for her to figure out. I'm trying to move ahead and free myself of her. I just have given up trying to fight her or show her what is right and what is wrong or what she should do or shouldn't do.
She doesn't listen anyway. She will find out when she moves and I cut her access to her account and she has to open up her own account, take care of things without me, be without me to badger and hurt. I hope she enjoys it.