I do agree Rome that I pressed a situation that shouldn't have been pressed at that time in that moment. However, I think that deep inside, I was feeling if I didn't get the emotional connection in our first few encounters/days, that in my eyes, he wasn't trying.
In any event, my confusion did set in the following morning after I pressed him and he wasn't there.When he returned to pick up some stuff, I asked him to reconsider what I said and wrote in the email and please understand that I was just under a lot of pressure. I apologized.
In my eyes if he can't see that I have/had every right to have a weak moment after everything he has put me through and is willing to still "walk" that easily, then in reality "Was he really willing to try and work it out?" or did I give him a "free pass?"
That's what I've questioned on these days that have followed. I had a rough weekend (super depressed again
,) but today I was much better. Doing what I needed to do, went to school, work, ect... (Got confirmation of all A's for this first year in Grad school
I'm wondering and waiting to see if he's going to take me up on the offer to go forward with the first MC appt we have scheduled for this Thursday. We had this scheduled before this argument. I wish I would have waited to "blow up." He said he would let me know if he want's to go.
Haven't heard from him since he picked up items on Sat. This should be interesting. I'll keep you posted, but any continued feedback is welcome.