brighterlight

I envy you guys that say you are working on it. I am afraid we are done! Today, for some reason, I am doing poorly. I am really emotionally weak right now trying to hold back tears. So hard while I am at work. My heart actually aches! She is going out of town this weekend back to her home town (about 5 hours away). Heard her talking on the phone with her SIL last night about her and them going out to some club/bar to part it up this Saturday. I am staying home to help my daughter and her husband move to a new apartment. Why am I so feeling so alone? I can't break down in front of anyone, and I can't get away from here to be in private. WTF, I think I need help but I don't know if I should go back to our marriage counselor or find me a new IC which will be like starting the counseling all over again. I don't know why our MC would even want to see me if I am not with W. Anyway, If I am alone at home this weekend, I think that won't be good for me. Wow, I sound pathetic; I am having a pity party and sharing it with the company of you guys here. Sorry folks, I am just down today.