| | Re: Waiting for Spouse
Twindad, thanks. I know we can do this. It's like each hour of each day is an up and a down for me. One moment I am perfectly OK (at least I feel that way) and then the next I am so deep in sorrow I am almost non-functional. I don't know what exactly it is I am supposed to do this weekend. At least I will be pre-occupied with my daughters move this Saturday, as for Sat night, Sunday and Monday - Geez. I really am in such an emotional roller coaster right now at times I feel like just blowing everybody off and going out to a club/bar/pool hall to see if I can find someone to be with. I know, deep down inside, I know I can't do that but being alone doesn't help either. Maybe going to our church chapel and praying will give me some peace but I am not sure I want to be seen sobbing. I am a wreck and I know you are too. I feel for us and I know everyone says it will get better but will it really, and how soon. I love the outdoors, I was thinking about going to the beach this weekend but when I really thought about it - it will just remind me of us and all the good times we had there; dammit she messed my heart up bad.