justean

gutted i suppose is the word.

and here's the but.

if you were together then the matter would be worse.
if you were split up, as in the case of H and I when we split and met other ppl, then when we did get back together, well you have to let those things go, because as i said you were split up.

my boyfriend at the time (Husband now) had split up just before i found out i was pregnant.
i did meet men, but i couldnt cross that barrier of having sex with another man.
number 1 , my child was and is the centre of my world and i didnt want to lose my child .

number 2, i didnt want another man inside me whilst i was pregnant with the child of the man that i stil loved.
but the same instance im not the girl who wanted to have sex with n e one else. again my baby was to be protected.

i hope you dont use this advice in a bad way.
14 yrs is a long time to cling on to strings because you obviously got back together and i would see your actions and words being unfair at this point because your family is about to separate.

there is obviously more to this story. but take these thoughts on board for the right reasons.