| | Re: Think I have proof finally...
Sorry to be blunt, but none of your questions matter.
He's manipulating you. The fact that you are thinking the questions you pose and not thinking about how to regain your own life wholly independent of him is proof of the hold he has over you.
He has treated you badly. You have self-worth. You need to break it off completely from him. Let yourself grieve. Talk to a counselor a lot. When you come through it, you will wonder why you ever gave a s**t about him.