kajira

As some of you are aware from reading previous threads my husband cheated on me. That information came to light in September and now it is January and we are trying to work it out. I feel I have gone through all the emotions possible and the bottom line is I still love him. In addition, after 18 years it is hard to walk away. It does take two to make it work and even though I still have some reservations I am doing my best to put both feet forward. Furthermore, he has also working on changing and I can see it. He is more understanding, compasionate and most all patient. I do not want to say that I am staying for the children even though since we have started trying they have noticed and seem to be doing much better. It has only been since the 1st so we will see what happens. Some days are better than others for me, staying positive is the hardest part and wanting to trust him. So far there have been no reasons or indications that I shouldn't, but still the thoughts are there. I have learned that each of us has to evaluate our situation and do what is best for ourselves. I want to thank everyone for their support and input, it has been very helpful. I will continue to keep everyone updated as time goes along.