DG3

Thank you for responding, it really does help! I have been tested for STD's and I'm fine. whew! I am in therapy, he has an appointment set up for tomorrow with a specialist in childhood sexual abuse. I waffle between caring for him and wanting to help him and support him to hating him and wanting him out. He has not been truthful about anything; everything I have learned was dragged out of him. I just found out his EA with the woman was going on much longer that he said and much more was exchanged with her. The stuff with the man scares me to be honest. I don't know who my husband is. This guy is local (the woman is 4 hours away) so I wonder if he has been with him sexually. I am scared. I also am scared for my children - I have three young boys. I guess I just don't understand these urges. At this point, I have decided I'm filing for divorce. I will support him while he gets help for the abuse but the trust is gone. I don't feel I could ever be with him again, especially in an intimate way. I feel like he has so many issues to deal with - he's also an alcoholic, angry, controlling, etc. I need to take care of myself and my boys right now. Thank you again!