katc

Lon, thank you!

No, I am not "ripe" for an affair. I have morals, values and that is not something I would do. I have no sexual desire whatsoever, for my husband or any other man for that matter.

I have "checked out" - some time ago. Admittedly, there are glimmers of hope and then I think "hey, maybe there is hope" and then he will belittle me, or tell me to "F" off and then I revert back to wanting out.

He knows how I feel. I have told him repeatedly. He asks what we can do to fix it - we tried counselling, he tried counselling, I tried counselling, nothing changed.

Financially, neither one of us can go anywhere. We would literally lose our shirts.

I have asked him to consent to divorce - he won't.

We live together, sleep in separate beds, communicate very little.

He is moody and brings me down. I'm a happy person, love life. He blames everyone else for his problems but himself, he's depressed (but won't admit it). I have asked him to speak to his Dr. about meds - he doesn't. I have tried.

I don't want it to be like this - but it's been the same "dance" for 3 years now.

You are right, it is pathetic - he seems pathetic to me. Like a sad little puppy dog. He walks like a beaten man, but then some days he is that happy guy I met and fell in love with - but then it starts all over again.

He's not a communicator - at all and now, I'm really not interested in what he has to say - it seems like idle chatter to me. We eat together and last nite, when he was done, he left me at the table eating by myself. I would not ever do that, and it kind of hurt. But then again, why would it - he was miserable last nite.

And today, he is mopey man again. I hate that.