demora

Hi hurtandsad,
Seeing what he's doing isn't going to help how you feel at all. The fact that he's hiding what he's doing from you is sign enough that he knows it would hurt you.

I deal with many of the same things, however, I am the administrator on the network. I know he gets emails and chats with many different woman. What he talks about with them, I have no idea. The fact that he will hide the messages from me is about all I need to know about them. He knows he's being dishonest or he wouldn't be hiding them.

I put a content blocker on both of the computers and he attempted to access porn sites so much that the license was used up in a couple of weeks and he was again, charging porn downloads. He didn't tell there was a problem with the software, I just noticed the charges in our account. And, he only does it when I'm not home.

I'm to the point where I am going to start taking the modem with me when I leave the house. Because we have cable internet, I belive that it has to be registered with the cable company to work...sooo...he won't be able to just plug in another modem and hook back up.

I spoke with my doctor today, I don't have any really close friends here and really no family to talk to about it. She suggested to try counseling and then if he doesn't change, that I should leave. I'm not a kid anymore and I don't think it's fair of him to put our financial lives in jeopardy just to get off.