Originally Posted by magnoliagal
Wasn't until I saw my own pattern that I made a conscious decision to date (and marry) the nicest most boring guy I could find.
Like that girl I like boredom now. Very soothing, predicatable, calm and peaceful.
I love this.
Originally Posted by RandomDude
I just find a strange that if I actually met someone who is a normal good girl, I'm not attracted. If they are nuts or psycho however, I go "hmmmm, interesting"... what gives?
You are addicted to drama. You probably need chaos and turmoil to feel good on some level, even if it's adversely affecting you. Perhaps you thrive on it, or you feel you need that edge in order for your life to feel "normal." The thing is, it isn't normal and it's very unhealthy. I agree with the other poster who said it sounds like you have poor boundaries which is why you have let your wife walk all over you and treat you the way she has, letting all of her needs get met while you suffer. It's toxic.