been through it all 2008

To answer the questions:
We have sex every night when we are getting along
We both initiate, but I think I do more
He is 40
and I don't know if he masterbates I don't think so, but I don't know absolutely.
I guess a lot of my insecurities come from our past. I've been through finding porn on computer, porn magazines, I've almost gotten divorced because of it. It is a sick, sinful addiction and has no place in a healthy marriage. I have a block on the computer for the porn and like sites, then he starts to look at breast augmentation sites and that made me feel just as bad. Then to play it off he says a wife of his friend had it done and then told me the cost. So I'm thinking Is he serious, or was he just looking to look. When i ask him now, he says he wouldn't want me to get surgery, but like I said he is a compulsive liar and I don't believe him, otherwise why would he look it up? he is a very selfish man, he has all kinds of entertainment toys whether trucks, cars, boat, 4wheelers, snowmobiles, old cars, expensive tools, etc. these aren't bad in themselves, but when they are on high interest credit cards and all the payments for his things eat up everything and the kids lack the things they need, not to mention food (they aren't starving, but there is never enough for everything we need), it is very frustrating. anyway, that is some of the background, I would appreciate anymore feedback thanks