Cuddly84

Im 23 yrs old with a 19 month old son. Here is my story of being cheated on.

First time i was cheated on was in my first relationship with someone 3 yrs older than me when i was 19. I stayed with him for 2 years amoungst the sexret calls from various females ( he said they were just friends). Msn messages from various girls mind u he was about 23 the girls were as young as 14 I should have known something was up but i was young and vulnerable from a very abusive past with stepfather.

The thing that made me questiont he relationship when i found out he met up with a girl at 2am int he morning while i was at home.i forgave him and continued to stay with him for a further 15 months during this time his female friend started calling him at the start i was alright wsith it but then it started to become a habit every night calling and staying on the phone for 4-5 hours sms;s all day calling in amongst having sex. cancelling plans to wait for her calls I had enough and in the end I broke it off with him even though we loved each other still.


The sexond time was with my babies father he left me when i was 14 weeks pregnant no reason just got up and vanished refused to see me and then started getting abusive I then find out he was telling girls over the internet tht he loved them and was talking to the on the phone I even had one girl telling him the baby isnt his and tht i was evil.

I took him back when my son was 2 months old I caught him 3 times with his bros ex gf fondling between her legs or sitting in a car with her at odd hours of the morning each time i forgave the worst thing about it i stuck around especially when he walked in his pops funeral with her and went straight to her to grieve. The last straw was when i found out he was still telling indonisian girls he wanted them and promised one marriage and I then caight him with his bros ex gf again in a car and refused to look after me and my son made up an excuse he had to go to the hospital.

I broke it off with him and i still have him telling me he loves me etcetc misses me when he is with the girl he cheated on me with. SOme of the days i have r great others i just wanna die as my heart has been hurt so much i dont know how to repair it. I am in a new relationship he is wonderful but my trust is tarnished cause of the past and i am forever questioning my new partners actions and always putting up a barrier cause i dont wanna be hurt again i feel liek im pushing my bf away i dont wanna loose him but i dont wanan tbe hurt either.


It has got to the point where i am depressed and Its taking a toll how can i get ove rbeing cheated on and move on with my partner who is i believe my knight in shining armor.