This is bad (update)
Most know by now my case.
To date, here I am.
NC since beginning of month. That I have been able to verify viewing phone records. No calls, email or text.
NC letter - refused
Delete pics - refused
Delete FB email msg - refused
Stop using FB - refuse. Used once with any notification. W say, I'm sorry, it won't happen again. I say, yeah right. W says. people are asking why I'm not on it.
1st MC - excuse, could not attend because work schedule. Rescheduled for next week. I have to see what happen. At least I went.
This means that feeling are still there for OM.
Consult legal advise - The ball is rolling.
The only thing going for her at this moment is no contact. Tick-tock, if any contact is made without me know it. I must make the next move. Since time has gone by, I know I'm ready to make the right decision for me. I'm not waiting for the Fog to go away or Bubble to break. That could happen after I'm gone, then W can see what she has lost.
At this time, I'm going to continue doing what I have been doing. Spending as much time with the kids as possible. Take them to the park. Doing homework. Running at least 3 miles every other day. Working out at the gym hard, until everything hurts. I go with W by the way. Trying to eat right. Since D-day, which was a month from today, I've lost 20 to 25 lbs. It was not the right way.
About that 180, I'm too tired, seems like too much work. I'm not say it's not worth it. W will stay or go. Her choice, I'm not going to force to do anything she doesn't want to. I care about her for this is too much for me to handle. Fog or not, I'm not waiting for 6 or 12 months to get out of this funk. At this point I'm ready to leave all this behind me. I have to see some real change in the next month, that will make me change my mind. B-day and anniversary is coming up. Who know what will happen.
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