whattodo0

I feel for you, I really do. Im in a similar situation. I am trying so hard to make my marriage work, I know my husband needs me, and loves me, and I love him, but not like "that" anymore. I know that feeling change many times overa lifetime, but I also think that people are so very trained to think thats its wrong to want more. I too, am in love with someone else, and everytime I consider leaving my marriage for good, I talk myself out of it, I think "what am I doing??? Am I really gonna leave my husband, my life, to be with someone else???" It sounds ludacris. I also suffer from anxiety and its hard for me to be out of my comfort zone.

But the truth is my marriage hasnt worked for a very long time.

I have also cut the other eprson off to focus on reconnecting with my husband, but its just not working. While Im content, secure and safe, Im not fulfilled or truly happy. Im hesiatant to move forward with even little, daily things bc I just feel like my marriage isnt going to last. We argue and consider divorce on a daily basis, and we've separated several times.

I know its hard, and trust me, Im looking for someone to tell me what to do, and that it'll be ok, but only we know. I guess only time will tell, and it will never be easy. But I wish you the best of luck, and trust me, you are not alone.