| | Re: Starting to Let Go
It's hard for me to see, as well. I've been going through the cycle of blame this week, and really had a breakthrough today where I realized that I need to give myself a break. It's not all my fault that this has happened.
Yeah, I went a little crazy on the being controlling aspect of all this, but I feel like if she really loved me she would do something about it. She would try to work it out with me or something.
Funny enough, she said she's scared that she's going to regret this decision. It's been a tough 36 hours for me, too. I'm waiting to hear about a job that will take me away from this place for a while. I'll hear about it either tonight (which doesn't look too likely right now) or tomorrow. It's tough waiting for your future to come, when you've spent so long going after it head-on. And it sucks to have your heart in the middle of someone's mental struggle.
The holidays. Hmph. I don't really view "Labor Day" as a holiday. But I can't imagine what life will be like around Christmas. Away from everyone I love and also apart from her...