Tired of everything
Well, I'm about to launch into a small rant here. Please forgive me ahead of time.
My wife and I have been married for just over four months. Since we got married, life has been quite the train wreck. It seems no matter what I do, how far I go out of my way, sacrifices I make, changes perform, or help around the house I provide, it's never enough.
I work 2nd shift (3-11), my wife works days (8-5). Because my wife has an hour commute, vs. my 10 minute (8 if I'm hauling) drive, I tend to most of the household chores. I clean, I wash, I vacuum, I do the laundry, I feed the cats, I get groceries, everything. My wife is not responsible for anything around the house. Which to me, has become a problem.
Because I'm responsible for the house, anytime something goes wrong, is forgotten, passed up, or otherwise neglected, I'm at fault by default. At one point, when we got a new cat, my wife promised to help with the cats, since they were her desire and idea. Now even that I'm solely responsible.
We're in counseling now, but not jointly. We can't go together because we've been in some pretty bad fights.
Somedays, I'm just so exhausted, so tired... I'm tired of fighting, but sometimes, I think my wife thrives off of the anger between us.
Well, that was a somewhat silly rant. Sorry.
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