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sarahdale24 · 02-08-2008, 09:27 PM

Felt this belonged here....

February 8, 2008 - Friday

My worst fear...about to come true!
Current mood: scared
Category: Life

So, I told you I would update you on the dentist visit. Honestly, I didn't get the news that I was thinking I would hear. "Mrs. Dale, you will have to have all your teeth pulled"...nope instead the verdict is.....

*Monday- I have to get a "gum treatment" yep. my mouth is that bad.

*Wednesday- I have to get 3 teeth pulled! Yep...

After all of that is said and done, if I have enough in my dental insurace account for the year, then I have to get 2 root canals done on 2 of my front teeth. IF that doesn't work, then I loose them. And explore other options. :-(

Honestly, Andrew has truly been the greatest husband in the world. He's been so supportive, he's told me that he will still love me no matter what, and he will always be with me.

Last night and today it hit me hard. I'm mentally and emotionally upset about the outcome that may happen. I'm scared, not about Andrew leaving me if this happens, but scared about having the same people who are considered my "friends" now, still be there for me later. I know that is mean to think about. Honestly, I laid in bed today til after 12 fretting, going back and forth about weather or not who's going to be there, and who's not. Will I be the same. Am I being too dramatic? Maybe, but its the phase I am going to get passed on this. Part of me is pissed off with myself for not taking better care of my teeth. Part of me is pissed off at people who can eat candy all the time, drink sodas all the time, and have decent teeth. Part of me is pissed off at my parents for choosing something else over taking us to the dentist as kids. No one is perfect, so I won't harbor all these pissed off feelings on anyone. I blame no one.

The things I have some to realize after today are:

*Andrew is going to accept me no matter what shape I am in, as I do him.

*IF it comes to me having to have those front teeth pulled and replacements put in, or if at the worse get ALL my teeth pulled then, I'll find out who my friends are, and have to have faith that those who are in my life will stay in my life.

Just kinda hard to accept this when all my life I haven't felt "beautiful", and finally when I began to accept that my smile wasn't perfect due to the bell's palsy from when I had my last ear surgery as a kid, and that my acne was FINALLY clearing itself up, and finally finding a man that didn't care WHAT I looked like, and loved me for me. Then this hits and blows it all up.

Sorry for going on and on. It took alot for me to write this blog. I know some of you were wandering what happened...there ya go.

Love ya all!!!

Sarah

02-08-2008, 09:27 PM	#1 (permalink)
sarahdale24 Member Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: Chula Vista, CA Posts: 124	Blog I posted on Myspace about detist appt. Felt this belonged here.... February 8, 2008 - Friday My worst fear...about to come true! Current mood: scared Category: Life So, I told you I would update you on the dentist visit. Honestly, I didn't get the news that I was thinking I would hear. "Mrs. Dale, you will have to have all your teeth pulled"...nope instead the verdict is..... Monday- I have to get a "gum treatment" yep. my mouth is that bad. Wednesday- I have to get 3 teeth pulled! Yep... After all of that is said and done, if I have enough in my dental insurace account for the year, then I have to get 2 root canals done on 2 of my front teeth. IF that doesn't work, then I loose them. And explore other options. :-( Honestly, Andrew has truly been the greatest husband in the world. He's been so supportive, he's told me that he will still love me no matter what, and he will always be with me. Last night and today it hit me hard. I'm mentally and emotionally upset about the outcome that may happen. I'm scared, not about Andrew leaving me if this happens, but scared about having the same people who are considered my "friends" now, still be there for me later. I know that is mean to think about. Honestly, I laid in bed today til after 12 fretting, going back and forth about weather or not who's going to be there, and who's not. Will I be the same. Am I being too dramatic? Maybe, but its the phase I am going to get passed on this. Part of me is pissed off with myself for not taking better care of my teeth. Part of me is pissed off at people who can eat candy all the time, drink sodas all the time, and have decent teeth. Part of me is pissed off at my parents for choosing something else over taking us to the dentist as kids. No one is perfect, so I won't harbor all these pissed off feelings on anyone. I blame no one. The things I have some to realize after today are: Andrew is going to accept me no matter what shape I am in, as I do him. IF it comes to me having to have those front teeth pulled and replacements put in, or if at the worse get ALL my teeth pulled then, I'll find out who my friends are, and have to have faith that those who are in my life will stay in my life. Just kinda hard to accept this when all my life I haven't felt "beautiful", and finally when I began to accept that my smile wasn't perfect due to the bell's palsy from when I had my last ear surgery as a kid, and that my acne was FINALLY clearing itself up, and finally finding a man that didn't care WHAT I looked like, and loved me for me. Then this hits and blows it all up. Sorry for going on and on. It took alot for me to write this blog. I know some of you were wandering what happened...there ya go. Love ya all!!! Sarah __________________ "I'd rather have three minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special" from the movie 'Steel Magnolias'