I just don't understand... there seems to be no remorse m
and almost no REAL ability to GET what he has done to ME and to our children.
He keeps saying, this doesn't have to be ugly, I don't want it to be ugly... um dude, then you should have kept your pants up for the past 1.5 years.
He doesn't understand he has changed who I am forever. He doesn't understand the level of which I don't trust him. And he continues to make decisions and such that just blow my mind.
It is like now that he is caught, it is ok to just be all open about it one week later... living with her, going places in the town we leave, telling me about how SHE has a generator so while his wife of 30 year and 3 daughters are freezing their asses in our condo, he is cozying up to his *****. Oh he asks can I help, but it rings really hollow you know??
We just had a major winter storm with significant damage and they expect no power for a week... I need him, and I don't want to admit that I do, and he isn't THERE for us... and he just doesn't GET that.
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